11 years 10 months and 14 days

I still count how long it's been since you left us.
I wonder if I'll ever just say, it's been 11 years, or almost 12 years?
When I think of how long it's been, I have to know exactly how long it's been.
You've missed so much...and we've missed you. Our family has changed so much since you died.
I picked up a clip of Brooke's wedding video. It was a great day, I wish you had been there.
You were missed.
I look back on all the things you've missed and feel a deep sense of saddness. I'll never forget what you told me after my brother died. "He wouldn't want us all to be so sad" I think you told me that more than once. It's unbelievable that you would be gone just two years after you told me that!
Today is Mark's birthday, I so often think of all the time the two of you spent watching movies when you were sick. I'm so glad you had that "sib" time together.
The words your friend Kim spoke at your funeral..."miss me, but let me go", were so profound, I know you would want us to miss you, but I know you would want us to let you go. I know we'll see each other again, till then, save a place for us all.